WHAT A POSITIVE MINDSET HAS DONE FOR ME
Having a positive mind state.
You guys know I've been working on myself for years. I successfully completed therapy last year. There's something truly wonderful about having someone to rant to every week. I began working through my own mess. Eventually, I could see that I didn't need therapy anymore. What I needed was to face the world on my own. That's when the challenge of walking on my own came.
It was strange at first. Life was throwing curve balls. I didn't try to dodge them or catch them. I took the hit every single time. Though I left therapy with a positive attitude, I could feel negative energy coming back. I didn't know why. I told myself that letting the positives consume me as I face the world on my own would help me live a happy and successful life. I'm not sure what that entails. I just knew that was the attitude I needed to continue to be better, live my truth, an be greatness.
I wasn't wrong. Everyday I woke up was a new day to smile and find the good in things. If something bad happen, I would take a breath instead of letting my anxiety rule over me. If I don't have control over a situation or life is just not going my way, I told myself to let it go. Let it go because trying to take control of the uncontrollable wouldn't help anything. It would make me feel like I've taken several steps backwards when I'm trying to keep moving forward. I also learned that my Sundays posts helped me. I was able to express a side I don't usually get to.
Eventually it got easier to see the good through the bad in ways I couldn't really feel the negative energy coming from life. I know life isn't all rainbows and unicorns. I wish it was, but it isn't reality. That's why looking at life through rose-colored glasses was the best thing I ever did.
Positivity gave me more than confidence.
First, look at the pictures in this post. These pictures, especially the first one, is the kind that would've never surfaced because I wouldn't have been able to free myself in front of a camera or people walking by. I had this horrible guy shouting at me while taking these photos. It wasn't slander, but it was uncomfortable nonetheless. There were also people walking past saying "work it girl" while I danced around the way I do. It's so weird to me. I used to shy away or wait for people to walk far away from me and the camera before I'd get muster up the courage for another photo.
Positivity made self love easier. Self love took time, as it should, to get me to a place where I can be unapologetically me. Don't get me wrong. I have moments when I look in the mirror and roll my eyes. There are times I want to stay in bed and hide from the world, I cannot and will not hide from the world. Self love is a life long thing. Whether I am learning more self love or just loving who I am, I evolve everyday and there is always something new to love or to love more. So, I am here to say that this is me. Hello world. Besitos.
I'm walking on sunshine.
My days have been filled with good vibes and love. I've been inspired by literature, art, music, mother earth herself, and people around me. I've spent time in museums which is something I've always loved. I've laid in the grass and just stared up at the sky. I'm dreaming of the Tuscan sun. I've also been reading more that what has been assigned to me. I'm currently reading Call Me By Your Name by Andre Aciman and it's so good. You'll be hearing about it on Places to Construe soon. I'm also trying new styles of writing in a journal I've fallen in love with. Sometimes I think I'm a poet. Other times I just want to write. I keep a reminder that tells me to keep my eye, heart, and mind open.
Before I go, I must remind you of one thing: Be and love yourself unapologetically so.