I’m thankful. Here’s why:
Family & friends. My family and friends keep me sane and grounded. I don’t really get to see them often because I live in the library. With all this research I have to do for school, I sometimes feel guilty for not being able to see them as much. They understand and they’re completely supportive. They get that academia is very demanding.
I got to hang with my best friend last week. It was the day before Thanksgiving and we had the best laugh. We laughed loud and hard. It felt so good to catch up. I felt like a normal person again. I also got to see my grandmother again. It’s been awhile.
The best part about this Thanksgiving is that my granny cooked. The last couple of Thanksgivings were spent with her in bed. She had felt ill each year. I would go over and just spend the time with her instead of worry about having a full course meal because all that matters is her. This year she is up and about. I spent the days prior to the holiday smelling collard greens. Gran is back and we’re all so happy and thankful to have her back to her normal self.
My education. Education has always been important. I was the kid who cried when my mom said that I could stay home and hav the day off. That was unacceptable. Why would I do that? I loved school as a child. Then I didn’t. I thought going to school was torture after awhile. I was a sleep deprived teenager that couldn’t sit still in class. Then I got to the university level and my ideas and my mind changed about school. I sort of fell in love all over again. I was able to study what I wanted not what I was forced to.
I’m being challenged at my new university. I’ve been working on two research papers. The first is about the friendship between Dante and Virgil in the Divine Comedy. I’m using Thomas Aquinas’ Summa Theologica as part of my argument for this paper. I’ve been enjoying the research and I’m learning a lot. My second research paper is about violence in art during the Baroque period. I’m using Caravaggio and Artemisia Gentileschi as my focus points. I am learning a lot with this paper too. Both papers balance me out in a way.
My blog. I know that it may seem like a materialistic or superficial thing to be thankful for, but it is something I’m thankful for. For the last four years, I’ve watched my blog mature. It’s been my own personal online diary where I can be open and share my thoughts, ideas, and express myself through clothes. I’ve also managed to meet lovely people. Most importantly, this blog has helped me face my fear and boosted my confidence. I put myself out there with no expectations at all and I get a little in return. The result of all of this has been mostly positive. It also allows me to connect with you. I’m thankful for that and you too.
I am here. I am alive. I am well. I am heathy and I am happy. It took a long time to get here. I put up a fight and I never gave up. If you’ve followed my blog over the past couple of years, then you know that I’ve been open about my mental health and my road to a happy and better life. I spent two years in therapy where I was able to work out a lot and get rid of the burden on my shoulder. I got closure and peace from it all. I’m moving forward. I’m stronger than ever. Life wasn’t always like this. It was a sunless world for me. It was a dark place that I wouldn’t wish upon anyone. No matter what, I always pushed through it. It’s not al rainbows and sunshine. Sometimes it gets tough and I think for a moment that I am going backwards, but then I realize that it’s just a bad day or moment. I refuse to let myself go backwards. I made it it through. I am here. I am alive. I am well. I’m ready for whatever the future holds.
Espresso & tea. Last but not least, I am thankful for tea and espresso. I may sound nuts, but it’s true. I drink A LOT of tea. I don’t think it’s healthy to drink as much as I do, but I do it anyways. I find tea to be soothing and therapeutic. It’s that time of year again when the holiday spirit mixes with the anxiety I get from having all of my deadlines at the same time. This leaves me emotionally and mentally exhausted. Tea is, like my favorite musicians (Harry Styles, Andrea Bocelli, Ed Sheeran). It soothes my soul. I find that drinking tea keeps me in a calm and peaceful state, especially when I’m really anxious. On the other hand, I am also thankful for espresso. It keeps me awake and allows me to be a slightly functioning adult when I’m working. Multitasking between working and my education is draining, but just like every other college student, I’m managing. Thank you to Angelo Moriondo for your wonderful invention. It is greatly appreciated.
There are so many other things that I am thankful for. I count my blessing. I am thankful for all that I have and all that I am. I am happy even through all of the stress and occasional anxiety. I am healthy. I don’t really have the need to ask for more unless I’m asking for a nap because they are much appreciated and much needed. Enough about me. What are you thankful for?